由模糊的记忆加亲人的口述，让我来组合出一张祖父的生活照。
他出生在中国由清朝改称中华民国的那一年，没被改名为“民国”，我想可能是曾祖父并不是一位很有革命细胞的清朝顺民，只求温饱，不谈政治。祖家前几代还算殷实，世代行医和做草药生意。到了我曾祖那一代，可能是因为当时清朝政府的腐败搞到民不聊生，家道也就没落了。
祖父家学渊源，于十七岁离乡时已学了很多中药、中医常识，做一位草药郎中是绰绰有余。所以，当他来到南洋，在开垦、种植、割胶之外，他也为人把把脉、看看病、开药方、配草药。最初他是义务看疹，为老同乡服务。久而久之人们对他把脉治病的能力信心满满，有病都来找他医治。我不记得從什么时候起他看病不再是义务的，不过從他一生没能置产，我想他所收取的疹金多寡是由那些来看病的病人随意包个红包，有多少，收多少。三毛不嫌少、一元不算多。到了七、八十年代他倒成了医治男女暗病的一把手。尤其是妇女暗病，找他就对了。他有偏方专治妇女暗病。
晚年的他，上午，常会在诗巫皇宫戏院对面，诗巫舊菜市场旁边的咖啡店里为人看病。
再后来，当他行动不是很方便时，就只好在家里行医了。
祖父的一生虽然没有什么大事可以大书特书的，不过还是有一些小事值得一谈。他在中国内战还没真真正正蔓延到福建福州古田时就已经乘船南下，勇度南洋，来到还是蛮荒之地的砂拉越诗巫。他幼年受过教育，学过医书。行事作风很有读书人本色，脾气牛得很，从不服输（对家人）。他也不善交际，从不花言巧语、东拉西扯。
这样一位小老百姓能发生什么大事？
在草木皆兵的六十年代，莫名其妙的大事却会找上门来。说了可能你不会相信，像祖父这种大气不出、温温顺顺、善善良良、没有明确的政治方向、从来不会跟统治阶级造反的良民却无端端地坐了一年政治牢房。
为什么？有关单位给的理由是：他支持共产党，听好，是支持，不是同情共产党。
在二战时成立的武装游击队，二战后，在反殖民，争取国家独立中走了一条与那些没有武装力量，纯搞政治斗争的政党，如“砂华”“人联”等不一样的路。记得国家才独立时的人联还是反对党，也是森林里共产党的支持者，多多少少都有帮助过他们。再说了，在中国文化大革命正搞得红红火火，满地都是红旗的六十年代，有谁不是共产党的支持者？有哪一个农民不向往土地的解放？反过来说，对于那些善良的农民，就算是一点也不认识的张三李四，来乞求三斤五两的白米、一瓶半罐的食油，逼于形式，无奈的也会多多少少给点帮助，就好像热心的人对乞丐的施舍。
就因为给森林里的同胞一点点油、盐、米、粮，祖父就进了古晋七里的政治集中营的牢房，一年后带着一身内伤回到了诗巫中华路我们一家八口所租住的一间房。一间十二尺成十二尺的房间。。
回想与祖父一起生活的二十五年里，他有真真正正地开心过吗？我很怀疑。我想生长在那个大时代的中国人没有一位有开心过，尤其是那些来到南洋打工做苦力的，他们人在南洋心系祖国，每逢佳节，回首北望，故乡亲人，还有几人？
Saturday, July 31, 2010
家 祖父篇 一
我是一位简单的人
简单的人做简单的事
说简单的故事
写简单的 Blog
家
家是每个人都有，最小，最简单的长久居住单位。
就让我间间单单地谈谈我的家。
说到家，还得從我父母最早最简陋，建在胶林里的亚答屋说起。
说到父母，不得不谈谈只身南来的祖父。
祖父因为当时的唐山，也就是今日的中国，正处于军阀割据，狼烟四起，民不聊生，百姓流离失所的中华民国初期。因为中国当时正处于长年战乱，在不得已的情况下，由中国的福建省副州市古田县漂洋过海南来。希望能在南洋赚到钱，然后衣锦回故乡。那时的他还只是个没满十七的黄毛小子。
那是马来西亚还没有建立起的二十世纪初之二零年代。
悲呀！惨呀！苦呀！
中国，五千年文明古国。
因为我祖父并不是那些最早跟随黄港主到达砂拉越的人，没有從白人拉者处拿到土地。所以，南来之初，他只能在拉让江中、下游一带，由这片胶林到那片胶林，为他人开垦种植橡胶。之后就是为人割胶，把赚到的钱大部份汇回唐山老家。当中国内战加剧，席卷全中国，回归故乡的路就更加艰难了。当回乡无望后，就只好落地生根，随遇而安地割胶、种地、存钱，娶妻、生子。我父亲出生于一九三五年。那时的砂拉越还是英国殖民地，由白人拉者布洛克管辖。
终其一生祖父再也没能回其故乡福建福州古田。
我想就连他的灵魂也没有回去，因为我们福州古田人不像福州闽清人，有，在人死后的满第六个七天，为死者扎一艘纸船，拿到江边焚烧，送他的灵魂返回故国唐山。那也就是所谓的“六船”。
所以，终其一生祖父再也没能，就连死后的灵魂也没能回归故乡唐山，我想。
如今就算我再怎么努力回想，祖父在记忆中的印象也已十分模糊。虽然他的遗照还高高地挂在家中大厅的墙上，俯视家里每一位进进出出的家人，可是经过了二十六年岁月的冲洗，他的身影、他的声音、他的一切都已像一张经过水洗的水彩画，摸摸糊糊的，不管你用多大倍数的放大镜，也只能看出一丁点、一些些色彩遗留下的痕迹。
可恶呀！我这个不孝子孙。
简单的人做简单的事
说简单的故事
写简单的 Blog
家
家是每个人都有，最小，最简单的长久居住单位。
就让我间间单单地谈谈我的家。
说到家，还得從我父母最早最简陋，建在胶林里的亚答屋说起。
说到父母，不得不谈谈只身南来的祖父。
祖父因为当时的唐山，也就是今日的中国，正处于军阀割据，狼烟四起，民不聊生，百姓流离失所的中华民国初期。因为中国当时正处于长年战乱，在不得已的情况下，由中国的福建省副州市古田县漂洋过海南来。希望能在南洋赚到钱，然后衣锦回故乡。那时的他还只是个没满十七的黄毛小子。
那是马来西亚还没有建立起的二十世纪初之二零年代。
悲呀！惨呀！苦呀！
中国，五千年文明古国。
因为我祖父并不是那些最早跟随黄港主到达砂拉越的人，没有從白人拉者处拿到土地。所以，南来之初，他只能在拉让江中、下游一带，由这片胶林到那片胶林，为他人开垦种植橡胶。之后就是为人割胶，把赚到的钱大部份汇回唐山老家。当中国内战加剧，席卷全中国，回归故乡的路就更加艰难了。当回乡无望后，就只好落地生根，随遇而安地割胶、种地、存钱，娶妻、生子。我父亲出生于一九三五年。那时的砂拉越还是英国殖民地，由白人拉者布洛克管辖。
终其一生祖父再也没能回其故乡福建福州古田。
我想就连他的灵魂也没有回去，因为我们福州古田人不像福州闽清人，有，在人死后的满第六个七天，为死者扎一艘纸船，拿到江边焚烧，送他的灵魂返回故国唐山。那也就是所谓的“六船”。
所以，终其一生祖父再也没能，就连死后的灵魂也没能回归故乡唐山，我想。
如今就算我再怎么努力回想，祖父在记忆中的印象也已十分模糊。虽然他的遗照还高高地挂在家中大厅的墙上，俯视家里每一位进进出出的家人，可是经过了二十六年岁月的冲洗，他的身影、他的声音、他的一切都已像一张经过水洗的水彩画，摸摸糊糊的，不管你用多大倍数的放大镜，也只能看出一丁点、一些些色彩遗留下的痕迹。
可恶呀！我这个不孝子孙。
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
My kids dairy
I am a simple person doing simple thing.
So my blog is going to be very simple.
The other day I un-intentionally read my kid dairy. And this is what she had to say.
" Dad told me he is going to cut my daily allowance as he can no longer afford it any more.
Due to the economic down turn, for the next few months his income will be greatly affected.
Anyway. As I have a better job with higher pay. I should be able to live a better life even without his adds. In order to keep up the standard of living and not let the family going bankrupt. He has no other choice. Cutting allowance is the only way to save the family. This is not the worst part. The worst part is that he is thinking of having me paying an extra four percent for whatever i eat and drink in the house."
"Why!? Why is this happening to me?
What has happen to a wealthy family with so many ways of getting money?"
She wrote further more.
" I do not understand why he has to buy a small fishing boat in three separated contracts. First of all he has to buy an empty boat. After that he has to equip it with fishing equipment. Then he will spend lot of money servicing."
" He is not happy with our house too. In years to come my brother will get married. New family member were join in. By then the house will be too small. So. Why not buy a new house."
" Further more. He has just given away another fifty ringgit to all his two hundred twenty two friends and relatives. I do not know what it is for. May be it is for buying sweets and layer cakes."
" If he can spend so much money on luxury thing like boat, car, building and so on. Why not just simply keep my small allowance? Why do I need to pay extra four percent for Grain, Sausage and Tea?"
When finished reading her dairy. I got very much upset. As the head of the family why cannot I decide what were the best for them. You should follow your leader. My decision is always right. ( To myself anyway.) You kids had nothing to say. I will lead all of to you to even greater heights. So trust your father.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
Can the solution be that simple?
Just trust your leader.
All problems will be solved in no time.
So my blog is going to be very simple.
The other day I un-intentionally read my kid dairy. And this is what she had to say.
" Dad told me he is going to cut my daily allowance as he can no longer afford it any more.
Due to the economic down turn, for the next few months his income will be greatly affected.
Anyway. As I have a better job with higher pay. I should be able to live a better life even without his adds. In order to keep up the standard of living and not let the family going bankrupt. He has no other choice. Cutting allowance is the only way to save the family. This is not the worst part. The worst part is that he is thinking of having me paying an extra four percent for whatever i eat and drink in the house."
"Why!? Why is this happening to me?
What has happen to a wealthy family with so many ways of getting money?"
She wrote further more.
" I do not understand why he has to buy a small fishing boat in three separated contracts. First of all he has to buy an empty boat. After that he has to equip it with fishing equipment. Then he will spend lot of money servicing."
" He is not happy with our house too. In years to come my brother will get married. New family member were join in. By then the house will be too small. So. Why not buy a new house."
" Further more. He has just given away another fifty ringgit to all his two hundred twenty two friends and relatives. I do not know what it is for. May be it is for buying sweets and layer cakes."
" If he can spend so much money on luxury thing like boat, car, building and so on. Why not just simply keep my small allowance? Why do I need to pay extra four percent for Grain, Sausage and Tea?"
When finished reading her dairy. I got very much upset. As the head of the family why cannot I decide what were the best for them. You should follow your leader. My decision is always right. ( To myself anyway.) You kids had nothing to say. I will lead all of to you to even greater heights. So trust your father.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
Can the solution be that simple?
Just trust your leader.
All problems will be solved in no time.
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